I feel it is not so easy to have a good life nowdays , I mean, good life that you can satisfy yourself and please others, including your family, your friends, and your lover.
Even if you are rich, you can't be perfect without other wealth, such as your knowlege, your taste, and so on.
If you did not know the art of romance, you could not make yourself complete.
If you did not know the art of illness, you could be surrounded by all kinds of disease.
Now I am badly lack of these skills, how to manage my life?
I clearly realized that I am wasting my life and commiting suiside.
But, what could I do?
My only dream is to dream big, to have a wonderful life, that I decide not to feel sorry when I am old.
Life deserves everything, though it is pretty tough currently...
